Sad

---- Chris born on June 5th

I,m a little sad .. 15 years ago today i lost my firstborn son in a fatal car crash, i,m OK ...but... sad then happy various emotions they are not acute and gut wrenching as they were in the early years ..
I feel peaceful and nurtured with a few phone calls , Jax ... my daughter Naomi .. and my girlfriend and we chatted about Chris ..you see hes in my heart.. my memories.. .....sometimes i panic and think ..what did his voice sound like ?.... and i screw up my eyes wanting to visualise to see his face , and recently i forgot what colour his eyes were..! panic ..all normal stuff in the process of learning to live without a child my baby.. my grown son .. and i miss him so very much ... i will see him again one day you see the Prodigal son did come home , I had the privilege of baptizing him with the Pastors of my church 9 months before you see he was only ever lent to me and now he is with his Heavenly Father .....
Its been a fabulous day weather wise and i have been losing myself in potting plants , also i gave a basket a lovely paint job in Cath Kidston Delphinium such a lovely colour , being creative is like medicine for me ......


YES there have been Good Times

Possible lampshade fabrics

Decision made ..i,m going to make the covers for my lampshades choice of two but i think i will be the red CK gypsy? i,ve just draped it over the shade to give an idea what it could look like .. see my previous post ..two ideas..given by Sian and Raspberry Grace and a link to a tutorial , have to hand stitch them as the tension on my machine is all wrong .
A little broach to tickle your taste buds i have a few for sale and two more bags .
Its been a sunny windy day today my favourite weather !..potted up some plants , painted a small bookcase in CK furniture paint Delphinium ....Gorgeous colour i,m going to order some more my dresser would look good in this colour!! cant wait !

Good Times X

Quiz

bgcolor="#EEEEEE" align=center> You Are An ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature. You are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms. You live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. In love, you are quiet and sweet yet very passionate. You love easily. You have an underlying love for all living things, and it's easy for you to accept someone into your heart. At work, you do best in an unconventional position. You express yourself well and can work with almost anyone. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer. How you see yourself: Sympathetic, kind, and communicative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, insecure, and overly sensitive

What's Your Personality Type?

I saw this on another blog I,m actually [was ] a Nurse... 95% .. correct ..especially when other people don't get me has been my achilles heel .... good job i know me ... x

Lampshade ideas

Help ..!needed girls I,m at a loss i,m searching for two table lamp shades biggish as the base is a good two feet tall , something like Cath Kidston used to do in flowery or gingham check i have googled it and so far have come up with plain ones at a shocking price and not my cuppa tea anyway ....I went to the Biggie Best site but i had to be trade to find out prices there's used to be fab... but for sure high in price , Ikea had some plain ones but not available to buy on line in plain red ...My nearest Ikea is in Bristol which is almost 3 hours from me in Cornwall .....living where i do is perfect ..... my nearest big shops is Plymouth and that's 35 miles away and rarely go these days so online is perfect for me ..
I have had a string of thrifted lampshades over the years but i feel these lamps that i have done a makeover on... deserve a new one ... could get excited and cover one ..i don't know how.. but could have a bash ,if i don't find what i want cant be that hard can it ?
I shall continue my search ....

Good Times x x